My Happiest Dream
I do not know how to describe my feeling after returning from abroad. Still, I have to move on and focus on reality. What I have faced or experienced now is somewhat called “Post-study-abroad depression” or “Post-travel depression”.
Before I went to the U.S. through the UGRAD program, I never dreamt I would experience this indescribable feeling. I could handle culture shock well and I easily accepted it. However, it is hard for me to accept the fact that I miss my favorite people and environment at West Virginia University (“WVU”).
The memories I hold are too much for me. I did not expect to have many memories of only one semester there. We went to eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner together almost every day. We went swimming, walking, and traveling together. Most nights, we stayed up late in one room and watched movies. We drank and got drunk. We slept over. Then we talked about our future. We planned to work hard and save money, so we could visit each other. It is too unrealistic, isn’t it? Yes, I think so. But, it is an inspiration for our own good.
I remembered the last day of my leave. It was the saddest night and I felt that I did not want to leave. When my time came, even one more extended minute was worth it. I realized that time is precious at that moment. I wish I could extend another minute to hug you. Though I left without dropping my tear, I ended up crying so hard in a car while I was looking back and seeing people waving “goodbye”. The last night in Stalnaker Hall of WVU remains in my heart for eternity. It leaves me with the happiest and saddest moment in my life. I felt so warmed by your touch … we hugged each other at 2 AM. We told each other that we would meet each other again ( but deep down, we know it is impossible). It was a short night but a memorable night.
It hurts me so much when I know we will not meet each other again because we will have our own life to work on. Although we will meet each other again, everything will not be the same. Our memories are kept at the bottom of my heart. Thank you so much for everyone’s presence.